the glitter of your lies

This is probably one of the most painfully personal pieces I've made lately. I don't know that I understand all of it entirely yet, or have the words to give it the statement it deserves right now, but I will try. It's easy to look at the world in simple terms, black and white, good and bad, right and wrong. It's easy to think of people, even ourselves as one or the other. And it's easy to write off our exes as evil, bad people who hurt us. Because that hate is the easy way to ignore the ache of a broken heart, and forget how deeply you love. But all relationships are both good and bad, both people make mistakes, both hurt each other, and in the end, there is no easy way to pick up the pieces, to reconcile truth from lies, to move on. Because no matter how destructive and toxic things may have become, there is always the memory of how good they once were. This is my attempt to grapple with the confusion of those feelings; love, hate, loss, betrayal, heartbreak, longing, anger, etc. And I don't even know if it's done yet. But I had to start somewhere.

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Resources: Apophysis 7x, Photoshop CS6

model: Goth Stock by
texture: broken glass on Morgue File

All other photographs or textures were created by myself or given to me to use as part of my personal collection.